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Emptiness
Monday, July 29, 2013 @ 11:58 AM | 0 Comment [s]
It's 2.50am and I'm crying away as if someone died but truth is, I want to be the one that's dead. Everything seems so useless right now, even talking to my bf about it doesn't help. He just doesn't understand how much I hate life in poly right now. It's not that I hate that I met him in poly, I mean he is the best thing that has happened to me. But it's just that I'm so stressed up with work right now. I know my GPA is gonna drop damn badly this semester because I'm not working hard at all. I hate what I'm doing right now and I tried to study but it just doesn't seem to get into my head. Classmates and friends are all being competitive it makes me doubt if there is ever true friendship. I'm getting so stressed out because exams are nearing and I have no clue what I need to do for tomorrow's test. I'm so fucked up. I'm useless and I'm sorry for being so dramatic about it but it seems to me that blogger is the one place that I can truly express myself and not get any objections. All these nights of crying to sleep are becoming more frequent. I hate my life now. I hate it that I'm so useless. Why can't I just not worry about anything and die
New Chapter
Saturday, December 8, 2012 @ 8:11 PM | 0 Comment [s]
Don't know if i made the wrong decision but since i already made it might as well be happy about it:)And what you're showing me is telling me i've made the right decision. Really want to enjoy life right now even though we are all stressed out with our own problems. Just gonna stop overthinking and enjoy the journey~ 5th December<3 life goes on
Saturday, October 27, 2012 @ 1:18 AM | 0 Comment [s]
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Really thank god this sem isn't that bad afterall. Even though its super tiring and i have no idea why. No point being stressed over things i can't control...sooooo, gonna just chill in life and see how it goes. I believe God has plans for me already so why worry:)
Can't wait for scarefest on friday with the EBM-ers. And i need to catch up with quite a few people. AND i need to start chionging work because up till now i have no idea what i am learning in class.
So long~
lets get wasted
Sunday, September 23, 2012 @ 9:51 AM | 0 Comment [s]
Why are all the guys i am interested in jerks? Do i have such a bad taste? HAHAHAAHJust thinking~ a shoulder to lean on please
Tuesday, September 18, 2012 @ 9:03 AM | 0 Comment [s]
Got into audio visual tech. GPA was okay but was disappointed with my IJ and Compro grades. BUT, its okayyy still got next sem~ gonna pull my gpa up instead of down..
For now, Im just gonna pray for the people in my class to be nice and i can get along well with them. Or else i am damn screwed.
Need more money right now so i am just going to chiong work and not think so much about other stuffs. Wasting too much time nua-ing at home. Not acceptable haha.
OKAY JIAYOU I CAN DO IT
Ending off with a pic of myself, as usual.. HEH<3
 i am no longer me
Tuesday, September 11, 2012 @ 9:12 AM | 0 Comment [s]
I was reflecting on everything i've done for the past few months and i realized i no longer recognized myself. Not in terms of looks or whatever but my character. Where is the girl that was so against smoking the last time? Where is that girl that scolded her friends when they did stuffs that was over the limit?
I picked up smoking this year and previously i swore to myself i would never smoke. Went clubbing whenever i am free and party so hard that i didn't had any limits. What happened to me? Where is the rational mindy?
I need to stop all these nonsense going on in my life for now until next year.
Be a girl that my mum can be proud of and focus on my studies. Nothing is more important than that now. Any bad things that are thrown in my direction, i am just going to push it aside. No more venting my frustrations through partying. Maybe once in a while is okay but i just feel that i've gone too much.
I've actually become an alcoholic. What in the world has happened to me.......
So I've decided to stop drinking till i am drunk. Stop clubbing for a period of time or once in a few months. And stop being an idiot that thinks drinking/clubbing is the only way to have fun in my life.
Time to be a good girl and prove everyone wrong.
So... i finally cut my fringe today after like a million years. Yay~
        
wish me luck for work tomorrow;)
Terrified
Saturday, September 8, 2012 @ 10:44 PM | 0 Comment [s]
  
ps: thinking of getting another tattoo. but where? hmmm
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