Staring into space with everything just blurring past. Ohh well, life's like this. Passes by like a blur when you don't notice. It's difficult for everything to fall into place so nicely. Everyone has their problems everyone has things that they can't except. I'm just the one of them. I'm sorry if you guys think I'm being sucha bitch because that's me. I can't stand hypocrites. Haha but sometimes I find myself becoming one in front of you because maybe I'm just easily influenced. And that's the way your are. Two faced? Haha actually thousands of faces and I would never care if I was the old mindy. Trying to fit in and all that shit. Who says friends in secondary school are the ones you would love most? I obviously do not believe in that because I know my life is just going to start when I graduate.
Continue thinking I'm cheap because it really doesn't matter what you think anymore. I'm not bothered. My main focus now is studies. I don't care how your want to bitch about me because I would block out everything and just study my own shit. Don't think you can be all high and mighty just because some tests that I did was worse than yours. Be competitive all you guys like. My goal is not to win you guys in some stupid school tests but in O's and prove to you guys that I can do it. And I know I can. At that time I would go up to your and thank your for being such hypocrites because it just motivates me to study harder and get into a good school away from you all. Not saying your can't get into a good school but I hope it's not the school I get posted too. I would start anew there. Show people who I really am and not act like a completely different person. I love myself(:
Anyways, I really want to thank this person that don't mind whatever stupid things I did and still be so honest with me and all. Haha this is the type of friend that I want in future.
I don't know what's the truth anymore and I can't be bothered. I feel like going back to him but I feel like I don't deserve his love anymore. After going away and being all rebellious seriously, who would want such a child? But I'm going to push that thought aside and run back to him. Try to be committed try to be nice. Or at least I hope.

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