I was reflecting on everything i've done for the past few months and i realized i no longer recognized myself. Not in terms of looks or whatever but my character. Where is the girl that was so against smoking the last time? Where is that girl that scolded her friends when they did stuffs that was over the limit? 

I picked up smoking this year and previously i swore to myself i would never smoke. Went clubbing whenever i am free and party so hard that i didn't had any limits. What happened to me? Where is the rational mindy? 

I need to stop all these nonsense going on in my life for now until next year. 

Be a girl that my mum can be proud of and focus on my studies. Nothing is more important than that now. Any bad things that are thrown in my direction, i am just going to push it aside. No more venting my frustrations through partying. Maybe once in a while is okay but i just feel that i've gone too much. 

I've actually become an alcoholic. What in the world has happened to me....... 

So I've decided to stop drinking till i am drunk. Stop clubbing for a period of time or once in a few months. And stop being an idiot that thinks drinking/clubbing is the only way to have fun in my life. 

Time to be a good girl and prove everyone wrong.

So... i finally cut my fringe today after like a million years. Yay~

wish me luck for work tomorrow;)